I apologize for taking so long between blog posts, however I have struggled to put the words down on paper what exactly I am feeling. Physically I continue to progress extremely well. Each day I continue to feel more and more like my old self.
On Thursday, I saw my Neurosurgeon for a post op follow up and he said I am doing GREAT! He checked out my scar and said everything was healing well. He even smiled and joked. He said I am allowed to do anything physical as long as I listen to my body and not push myself too hard. I still need to not be alone in certain situations because I am still at risk for seizures. So no dangerous adventures on my own just yet!
I am extremely grateful for the amazing doctors I was blessed to work with and the job they performed to allow me to have such a successful surgery without infections, set backs, or complications. I cannot put into words how thankful I am that my surgery was so successful so many different aspects could have gone wrong! On the other hand, I struggle daily with the lack of freedom any other 25 years old would have that I don’t!
As I have said before, I am an extremely self sufficient person and will go the extra mile to do something alone before asking anyone for help. Now, I know this can be an excellent quality, but can also be so tough and hindering when all I need is just a little help.
I am so very lucky to only have the complaint of lack of freedom and not being able to drive. I have been so so fortunate to be able to still live at home and have been so fortunate to have had my sisters come home to help out and my parents helping with everything I need and needed without me even asking. I would not have been able to overcome this detour without them and I truly cannot thank all of them enough!
Luckily, I was able to get back to work for the past two weeks and I felt at peace once again by the pool and helping others in the sport I love. The ability to teach, set goals, and help others to achieve their goals is one of the most rewarding things ever and that’s what I love about coaching. At the end of each season all of my swimmers find success because with either a good or bad swim we can always find the positives. In recognizing these positives, we can find what we need to be better in order to achieve their goals This mindset is so easy to teach to others, however I have really struggled putting this into my own daily routine.
I want to thank absolutely everyone who has reached out to me during this time. My family was the immediate help I needed, but the support of friends and loved ones has helped just as much and at times has turned a terrible day right around. On my worst days, I struggle to remember that I am alive and am so grateful for what I have and what I have been given and all that I have worked for. I believe all my hard work and dedication has helped to overcome this huge barrier in my life with so many losses in such a short period of time.
I truly vow to continue this positivity through my life and to continue to reach out to others to see how they are doing. I feel everyone is so busy working hard and making a living that we cannot sit down and check on others. Although, I believe it would make a world of a difference if we could reach out and remind others they have someone who cares about them even on the regular boring days. I plan to continue my blog every few weeks just to put out how I am doing and to possibly enlighten someone else who may be going through a challenge as well.
Thank you to everyone who has followed along on my journey and my blog. This has helped me so much more than I initially thought and it is such a relieving feeling to express some of my thoughts on how I am feeling and how much the other people have helped me along the way.
Please look out for other blog posts along the way!