Wow, I did not expect the outpouring of love and support from everyone through starting my blog! I will try to personally thank each and every one of you, but could be a delay once we get this party started! Please continue to follow along as my plan is to give a thank you to supporters at the beginning of each blog entry. For anyone that has reached out, is thinking about me, has donated, or has been praying for me I cannot thank you enough. The love and positivity has helped change my outlook on this surgery and I believe it will help me get through these tough times. As each day goes by and it comes closer to the WADA test and the surgery date, I have become a bit more nervous and worried about these two procedures.
The WADA test will be June 5th and the doctors will start a large IV like catheter through my artery in my groin. Once the catheter is established they will run a series of tests and then begin to give me medication to put each side of my brain to sleep one at a time. Ok, I have to admit a little freaky that they can do that and they are doing it to ME! While half my brain is asleep, the doctors will ask me a series of questions to determine where my memory and language function is located in my brain. This will determine the type of surgery the neurosurgeons will be doing, either awake or asleep an surgery. If the tumor is located near my speech, memory and language center, I will be awake during the surgery to ensure the doctors do not touch anything important in the brain. On the other hand, the preferred method would have my language and memory center on the opposite side of my tumor and I am able to be asleep for the surgery.
The surgery date has not been scheduled yet, but we have been given some tentative dates. It could be ranging in a two week span from June 9, 13, 14, 16, 20 or 21. I do not like the unknown of these many dates and I hope the surgery is as soon as possible. With the use of these additional test, the neurosurgeons will be able to put together the best possible plan to ensure the safest outcome for me. I will let everyone know once I have my surgery date set!
Either way, I am struggling with one aspect of this situation. Why me? I believe that I am a hard working and dedicated student, coach, and person and I am too busy to be going through all of this. I have good days and bad days as the surgery nears, but I am able to continue to coach and do many things that I love. Coaching, playing with my dog Radar, playing video games, exploring with my girlfriend Lizzie, and taking pictures, are some of my favorite activities to help get my mind off of the surgery and any negativity that may creep into my head. As humans, we are always able to ask the “why me” question in many situations, but negative things or situations happen to the best people and I believe it only makes them stronger and brings people closer together.
On the other hand, this has given me a life check. I have been able to put many things into perspective and am able to appreciate the little things in life so much more. As life is ever so precious we must not take anything for granted as life can be taken from us in seconds. I hope as people continue to reach out to me and spread thier love and positivty that this will become a positive force in your own lives. I vow to continue to put the things I love in the forefront and continue to spread the love and positivity long after my surgery and I hope people can join in as well!
Please continue to follow along on my journey! As well I would like to thank each and every person that has reached out, donated, and thought about me or my family during this time!!